Enter the soliloquy.
The Jester is writing his soliloquy.
It begins soon...the beginning and the end. The end is written; I just need to read it.
13 October 2012
04 August 2012
Calypso
Today I said goodbye to my dog, Calypso.
She had been sick and steadily got worse, to the point that she couldn't move her hind legs or go to the bathroom.
Today, my mother and I gently petted this amazing creature, this perfect companion, as she was ushered to her final sleep.
I miss her so badly.
Good Dog.
She had been sick and steadily got worse, to the point that she couldn't move her hind legs or go to the bathroom.
Today, my mother and I gently petted this amazing creature, this perfect companion, as she was ushered to her final sleep.
I miss her so badly.
Good Dog.
29 June 2012
The end of an era...
Tomorrow is the installation of officers for Spring Lodge no. 1174 2012-2013. As the outgoing Worshipful Master, my final official duties will be to call to labor and close the Master Masons' Lodge of Sorrow, after reading the names of the brothers who have fallen this past year. After doing that, I will open the installation ceremony. Once opened, I will take my seat amongst the brethren, as a Past Master...a veritable "has-been".
Looking back on my Masonic Journey, to this point, I can hardly believe how far I traveled in so short a time.
I became a Mason in November 2006, achieving master Mason in March of 2007.
Three months later, the WM at the time asked if I would be willing to serve as an officer. I accepted the offer and became the Marshal of the Lodge in July 2007, serving the lodge as a peace-keeper and assistant to the WM.
The next year, I was promoted, by appointment, to Senior Deacon, (a jump over 4 positions) charged with scheduling rituals and events, and taking all new candidates under my wing for the start of their respective Masonic Journeys.
The following year, I was elected to the position of Junior Warden, being the second deputy to the WM, and keeper of Grand Lodge of Texas laws and Spring Lodge by-laws. During that time, I organized and supervised the Spring Lodge Golf tournament, proudly making it one the most successful in our 90 year history. I also oversaw Spring Lodge's pursuit of the Grand Lodge of Texas Vanguard Award for excellence in Masonry, and award we hadn't received since 1991.
After that, I was promoted, through election to the post of Senior Warden. Serving as the Chief Deputy, in the West, to the Worshipful Master in the East, I was charged with organizing and planning all fund raising activities for the year, as well as overseeing all esoteric studies and achievements.
Then, in June 2011, I was elected unanimously, to the position of Worshipful Master of Spring Lodge no. 1174. In just four and one half years, since joining the fraternity, I was elevated to the top most leadership position within our walls.
I served the Lodge and the Fraternity, with as much honor and integrity, as I possess, and tried to bring harmony to the forefront, and solidify our fraternal relations with neighboring lodges. I am proud to say that lodges in our district, through an effort shared by all members, have never been more strongly united in the promotion of Freemasonry.
When I began my journey (which isn't really finished) I never imagined that I would be able to achieve so much, personally OR for Masonry in general.
This year, and indeed, my entire Masonic experience has been wonderful, and truly humbling.
I have been an officer of this great Lodge for all but three months of my time as a Master Mason. I am looking forward to joining the ranks and getting involved as a member once more. But I would be lying if I said that it is a bittersweet feeling at the end of this era.
Fiat Lux
Looking back on my Masonic Journey, to this point, I can hardly believe how far I traveled in so short a time.
I became a Mason in November 2006, achieving master Mason in March of 2007.
Three months later, the WM at the time asked if I would be willing to serve as an officer. I accepted the offer and became the Marshal of the Lodge in July 2007, serving the lodge as a peace-keeper and assistant to the WM.
The next year, I was promoted, by appointment, to Senior Deacon, (a jump over 4 positions) charged with scheduling rituals and events, and taking all new candidates under my wing for the start of their respective Masonic Journeys.
The following year, I was elected to the position of Junior Warden, being the second deputy to the WM, and keeper of Grand Lodge of Texas laws and Spring Lodge by-laws. During that time, I organized and supervised the Spring Lodge Golf tournament, proudly making it one the most successful in our 90 year history. I also oversaw Spring Lodge's pursuit of the Grand Lodge of Texas Vanguard Award for excellence in Masonry, and award we hadn't received since 1991.
After that, I was promoted, through election to the post of Senior Warden. Serving as the Chief Deputy, in the West, to the Worshipful Master in the East, I was charged with organizing and planning all fund raising activities for the year, as well as overseeing all esoteric studies and achievements.
Then, in June 2011, I was elected unanimously, to the position of Worshipful Master of Spring Lodge no. 1174. In just four and one half years, since joining the fraternity, I was elevated to the top most leadership position within our walls.
I served the Lodge and the Fraternity, with as much honor and integrity, as I possess, and tried to bring harmony to the forefront, and solidify our fraternal relations with neighboring lodges. I am proud to say that lodges in our district, through an effort shared by all members, have never been more strongly united in the promotion of Freemasonry.
When I began my journey (which isn't really finished) I never imagined that I would be able to achieve so much, personally OR for Masonry in general.
This year, and indeed, my entire Masonic experience has been wonderful, and truly humbling.
I have been an officer of this great Lodge for all but three months of my time as a Master Mason. I am looking forward to joining the ranks and getting involved as a member once more. But I would be lying if I said that it is a bittersweet feeling at the end of this era.
Fiat Lux
29 October 2011
In the end
In the end, the only thing we can reasonably expect out of life is to just keep breathing.
To breathe. To participate in the most basic of human functions.
Sometimes, I think that to expect this small token is to expect a miracle.
To breathe. To participate in the most basic of human functions.
Sometimes, I think that to expect this small token is to expect a miracle.
19 August 2010
The very last...
A little more than a year ago, I posted last here, my most prized and guarded journal. A journal which I hardly advertised and never intended for audiences. Harken back to my first entry for understanding...
In July of 2009, I was in desperate pursuit of one person's heart. The post, called "The Wheelhouse", was about that pursuit. It was at that time that the woman and I were heading toward each other again, in what I thought was the final act of my single life.
We came together, and shared amazing times together,that will always stand in honor in my mind and heart.
in any case, we parted ways.
Here I am, little more than a year later, and single.
I am ok with that, and have been filling my life with enjoyment, and positivity, regardless of the emotional strain i feel.
I am looking to the future, albeit a different future than I envisioned a year ago...
My aim is ture and centered, not on the woman, but on the notion of a woman, with whom i can share my life...the things I want in a woman, being the focus...and not the woman, I thought had filled them.
I am always looking to the West for guidance.
In July of 2009, I was in desperate pursuit of one person's heart. The post, called "The Wheelhouse", was about that pursuit. It was at that time that the woman and I were heading toward each other again, in what I thought was the final act of my single life.
We came together, and shared amazing times together,that will always stand in honor in my mind and heart.
in any case, we parted ways.
Here I am, little more than a year later, and single.
I am ok with that, and have been filling my life with enjoyment, and positivity, regardless of the emotional strain i feel.
I am looking to the future, albeit a different future than I envisioned a year ago...
My aim is ture and centered, not on the woman, but on the notion of a woman, with whom i can share my life...the things I want in a woman, being the focus...and not the woman, I thought had filled them.
I am always looking to the West for guidance.
09 July 2009
The Wheelhouse.
Seeing that his true course was behind him, slowly, the bow turned to port and the captain steamed in the direction from which he came.
As the ship came about, he could see the subdued purple of the dawn creeping over the horizon.
When the sun finally peaked up over the edge of the Earth, a brilliant shaft of orange red light lit up the sky.
O! What a Heavenly light!
Onward the vessel steamed, into the broadening day, onward toward his long home, onward.
As the ship came about, he could see the subdued purple of the dawn creeping over the horizon.
When the sun finally peaked up over the edge of the Earth, a brilliant shaft of orange red light lit up the sky.
O! What a Heavenly light!
Onward the vessel steamed, into the broadening day, onward toward his long home, onward.
26 June 2009
Summer Programming
I wake up.
I can't open my eyes.
I have the sensation of being jostled slightly, but I can't turn my head to see what is moving me. Wouldn't matter anyway, I can't open my eyes.
I try to shift my weight on what I think is a bed, but my wrists and ankles are bound by something, or someone.
God, I wish I could open my eyes. There is a dull throbbing in my head, and I have an overwhelming urge to rub my eyelids...a dull throb, and slight itch. Why are my wrists bound?
Where am I??
"We're almost done here?"
Voices.
Just there, I can hear them.
"Yes, very nearly. Less than five."
...and again! Who is that? Hello?!
I call out, "Who's there?!" I can feel my mouth moving, but only just. My whole face feels slightly numb. I don't hear the voices anymore, but I feel a presence next to my right ear. Was that fabric on a coat?
A slight pinch in my right arm.
I feel myself falling asleep. I've never felt so tired, and relaxed.
Even though I can't see, I have the sensation of 25 pairs of eyes watching me intently.
"Gone in two."
The dagger-like pain shoots through my chest and lungs. I can't breathe, and my chest is burning!
I suddenly have the very desperate desire to break from my binds and leave, but the hands begin to grasp all about my torso, pulling me down.
My eyes are open, now.
"It's done. Time is 12:07"
Oh God, I wish I could close my eyes.
I can't open my eyes.
I have the sensation of being jostled slightly, but I can't turn my head to see what is moving me. Wouldn't matter anyway, I can't open my eyes.
I try to shift my weight on what I think is a bed, but my wrists and ankles are bound by something, or someone.
God, I wish I could open my eyes. There is a dull throbbing in my head, and I have an overwhelming urge to rub my eyelids...a dull throb, and slight itch. Why are my wrists bound?
Where am I??
"We're almost done here?"
Voices.
Just there, I can hear them.
"Yes, very nearly. Less than five."
...and again! Who is that? Hello?!
I call out, "Who's there?!" I can feel my mouth moving, but only just. My whole face feels slightly numb. I don't hear the voices anymore, but I feel a presence next to my right ear. Was that fabric on a coat?
A slight pinch in my right arm.
I feel myself falling asleep. I've never felt so tired, and relaxed.
Even though I can't see, I have the sensation of 25 pairs of eyes watching me intently.
"Gone in two."
The dagger-like pain shoots through my chest and lungs. I can't breathe, and my chest is burning!
I suddenly have the very desperate desire to break from my binds and leave, but the hands begin to grasp all about my torso, pulling me down.
My eyes are open, now.
"It's done. Time is 12:07"
Oh God, I wish I could close my eyes.
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